To scandalize is a right,
to be scandalized is a pleasure.
Pier Paolo Pasolini.
It has been four years since I started writing this novel: two years to write it; two years since the first publication in Spanish and for the first time: a publication translated into English.
Buy the book in English:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09TMWKD17
An author could spend a lifetime trying to explain just a second of his existence; a moment with a person, an occasion in solitude, an instant on the edge of passion and death, an orgasm generated by a violent excitement produced by the flame of love, to finally: die.
“You only live once”, “wrong, you only die once; we live every day”. “You can only say that you have lived when you have died.”
Life and death have been two concepts that have been embodied in this novel and at the same time; two ideas that remained present during the two years I spent writing, without leaving aside the readings that complemented my ideas and feelings.
Contradictory in nature, life and death are a duality: one is capable of being something because of the other. Life: creates, death: destroys [and with it, we reborn?].
This sense of “not-knowing” and “contradiction” were [are] my guide to create the stories I tell in my books; mostly experimental and chaotic in nature; they consolidate the vision of an unconventional love, because love is like that.
Pauline is a book that aims to reflect a vision of “modern” love, in which it has been necessary to rely on eroticism [as a transgressive characteristic], since nowadays what is experienced as “Love” is something merely empty, where technology and love, as a market product, has annihilated the figure of the Other, similar to the ideas put forward by Byung-Chul Han in his book The Agony of Eros.
For this reason, in the novel there is an absence of elements that today are indispensable for communication, such as mobile phones or social networks, with the intention of focusing on what really matters: the inner search that a person must experience in order to know himself, and thus generate significant changes in his life. But to get to that point, one must first annihilate a part of oneself, an aspect that is reflected in different symbolic ways and of which “transgression” has been necessary; expressing transgression as a way of annihilating ourselves through the inner search, breaking ideas, norms, family customs, even religious beliefs.
Written from my Inner experience, Pauline is a tender but violent novel, cutesy but aggressive, as real as oneiric. It is a pleasure for me to have expressed a large part of my ideas in a book as intimate as this one, and today I am happy to announce its translation into English and a second edition in Spanish.
A big hug to my friends and readers who have been with me from the beginning of this artistic process.